There comes a point every morning, while setting water to boil, that I have to decide whether I’m going to brew myself a nice cup of “Mother’s Milk” tea or a strong pot of Guatemalan Dark coffee. It’s usually just after Josh and Dylan have left the house and, in their wake, there lies a frozen dormancy over all beings in the house. Especially in these cold, dark days, the frigidity manages to press everything down, even within our cozy den. The dogs curl into themselves on their blankets. Oscar moans sleepily from his reclined chair on the kitchen table. I stand, half-asleep, in robe and slippers, staring down into the red teapot as it fills with water. Do I want the delicious lemon flavor and caffeine-free herbal remedy that will promote abundant, healthful milk production? Or…do I want the deep berry and honey flavor with lush acidity and a caffeine quality that kicks? Or…wait a second…do I want what’s left in that bag o’ wine over there? Yeah, that’s right. Nothing says classy quite like a deflated Black Box bag, snuggled up to the box of Cheerios on the kitchen counter. I mean, really Kate? You couldn’t have just finished that one off last night? Or, at least, put it out of its misery by depositing it in the trash? You thought that much wine deserved to be saved? I guess. There are certain truths revealed to you about yourself as you start to operate on very little sleep. For me, I’m starting to understand that I am, in fact, the kind of woman who will save a half a glass of boxed wine for another day. I’m also the kind of gal who will brew a pot of coffee at 6:30am, rather than tea, because I know the truth: I’m going to need the fuel for the next few hours until Oscar is ready to sleep through the afternoon. And with that coffee? I’ll eat chocolate peppermint bark for breakfast and maybe an egg salad sandwich at 9am. Why not? My days don’t make chronological sense anymore, so why should my palate? Maybe that wine will be a perfect pairing with leftover pizza for lunch. And maybe, God willing, I’ll get some sleep today before darkness falls.